Yes, I think I understand what you mean, but I’m not looking for a romantic relationship, although I’m a bachelor. I’ve had some mostly bad experiences in my life and I now find that life is simpler living alone. I love to write to people and that is why I am on this site.
If you have not been married, you could consider it a blessing because today a lot of people who married when young are stuck in bad marriages and difficult relationships with the person they married. But... the thing we lack the most is always the thing we want the most, so if you’ve never been married, maybe that is something you want very much.
I think you mean that you took care of your own family and did not have time to build one for yourself. This happens in some families where older children take care of their parents and younger siblings.
As for beauty, it’s in the eye of the beholder and it is a subjective concept. I’ve known some women who thought they were not beautiful but in fact were. And men don’t have the same opinion on how beautiful a woman is. Sourire
There is also an economic element in your message I think. You imply that you don’t have a place of your own to live, which is very important. You don’t seem to have a job outside the house either. Of course that would be preferable but you have to evaluate what type of work you can do. Past fifty years old, it’s not easy to find work sometimes.
My opinion is that relying on a foreigner to solve your problems will probably not work and may even add to your problems. You must find solutions within yourself by analyzing your present situation. And there are always solutions if you have a plan and goals. But if you really want to find a man, I think a dating site would be better.
I’m sorry that I cannot be more helpful. But if you need a friend to write to, I’m always there.