Track 05 – mike
It seems lot of cars pass by here, but no taxi does.
It’s off season?
Hm? I don’t know much about that stuff.
Where do we get if we keep walking straight? is there any shop around? You’ll be troubled if it gets dark in this bare place.
You don’t know? Didn’t you have a guidebook?
*sigh* Don’t say “oh!”. you’re unexpectedly pretty clumsy.
Forget what i said earlier, okay…? Like my complaints and all…
Shut up! it’s okay if you don’t get it.
[01:00]
Huh? What is it?
Don’t make such a strange sound out of the blue!
Hah? Tonight’s live performance? Why do you know something like that?
The person who you were supposed to come here today with…ah, that person was going to have a live concert date?
Huh.So in short, you were rejected because of me? My condolences.
In this kind of place? Of course I wasn’t supposed to come here. That’s why I told you I skipped work.
I already told you not to scream!
That’s right. I abandoned that live concert and came here.
Why are you panicking?
Don’t make me repeat myself, it’s not okay but I still want to be here. It’s got nothing to do with you.
[02:00]
Just drop it and let me see the guidebook. The sun’s already setting! At this rate, we’ll be camping outside here.
Huh?
Ah…that car…It’s bad. It’s my manager!
Eh? Why? I even changed my location after I turned off my cellphone. Come here! This way! We’re leaving this place.
Run to that forest. Hurry up!
Huh? We can’t get lost in a sight-seeing area, can we?
I can’t go on with these feelings. It’s impossible. Nothing can be done anymore. I can’t sing like this! I can’t! It’s better to just disappear without singing than to disappoint with my singing–
*loud noises*
Uh! It’s a cliff! Look out!
[03:15]
Damn…ouch…
Ah…hey, are you okay?
You’re not hurt? Is that so? Yeah, me too.
I hurt my bottom a bit at the end though.
We fell quite a bit.
Ah…it seems we were really lucky.
If I wanted to climb up from here i think I can but…No, it’s impossible for you.
Well, even if we go back now, I’ll only get caught.
[04:00]
If we go down that way we’ll get somewhere for sure.
Ah..I’m sorry. My bad. But I didn’t know at all it’s something like a cliff here! You’re not hurt, aren’t you? Though I hurt my bottom.
Ah, I can at least carry your stuff.
Is this all?
Jeez, I’m Mike. By now, there are ten thousand fans in the concert hall waiti— *cough*
What’s with that expression? why don’t you worry about yourself instead of thinking of others? Do you understand that you’re all alone with a guy in this deserted mountain or forest or whatever?
[05;00]
Hey. You just laughed, didn’t you? No, you did!
You know, I don’t care what happens to me anymore. I don’t care, whatever. It’s possible that the photos they took earlier are already being spread around. With a title like “Mike abandons his live concert for a trip with his girlfriend” or something. I tried to disguise myself in some way, but I can’t convince them it’s not me when they took photos from such a point blank distance. It doesn’t matter what I was actually doing. because it’s the truth I ditched the live performance and I’m with a woman. I can’t evade them when they even have pictures. If that’s so…I have to do my thing, right? Society won’t believe me if I tell them nothing happened, and it will be no excuse.
[06:03]
I’m at the edge of the cliff anyway. The only thing that’s left is to fall straight down…right?
I’m really sorry for you, you know? But I didn’t pressure you to come here at all. It’s your responsibility that you’re here now. I won’t let you say that it didn’t even cross your mind something like this could happen.
Hmph. Weren’t you actually hoping for this? Your friend was taken away by her boyfriend and you ended up alone.
Thta’s why you tried to be nice to me. Am I wrong?
*slap*
Ouch! You!!
*sigh* this is so stupid. It was a joke, just a joke.
Who would’ve attacked some girl like you? There are a lot of women who’d be happy even if I just spoke to them. There are many who come on to me by themselves, I don’t even need to do anything troublesome. That’s why calm down. I said I’m sorry! Don’t cry, I won’t do it anymore!
Ah-ah, this is the worst.
It’s the first time in my life a woman hit me. I want to cry.
Track 06 – The Lost Two
It’s strange…it should be about time we got out somewhere, but…
Are your feet okay? they’re not? Of course…those aren’t shoes you’d use in this kind of place. Should we rest for a bit?
I’ll put your thing here.
You don’t need to stay so far away from me. I won’t do anything anymore. Well, of course it’s my fault that it’s come to this, but…
Don’t blame everything on me!
Forget what happened earlier. I don’t believe that it’s your responsibility you’re here. It’s 100% my fault. I know that. It’s my fault I involved you in this and I’m trying to mess my own life up. It’s about time I released you.
I guess it’s starting…
Yeah, the concert.
Go there now? heh. If we run at light speed we might make it. though it’s impossible to go when we’re in the mountains. Even if we got there, I wouldn’t be able to sing anyway. It’s useless to think about it.
It’s not like I’m sick or something. It’s a problem of feelings. I thought I could do something until yesterday, but I felt it’s impossible when I woke up. No matter what I did, I thought I couldn’t sing. My mind was all blank and the music was all gone. Even if I looked at the sheet music, tried my guitar or played my own songs on CD, it seemed like someone else’s song. It wouldn’t go inside my heart at all. I know by heart both the lyrics and the melody, but I couldn’t believe it was my song when I tried to hum it.
[02:20]
The more I tried to sing, the more it seemed like it’s not my singing and I felt as if I was getting farther away from myself.
Heh…it’s okay. No one gets it anyway.
I wonder when it started…I’ve always wondered why I’m making songs. Even so, I still continued doing it. I thought that if I continued, I’ll find the answer some day. But I guess the price for doing something halfway arrived. The price for deceiving myself and the people around me.
Heheh, no…I was thinking that it’s good you’re not my fan. I’d feel pretty bad if you were disillusioned right in front of me. I think we should go soon. It’ll really be bad if we don’t find the road before it gets completely dark.
[03:30]
I can’t believe we got lost in such an important sight-seeing area.
Here, hold my hand.
Ah, it’s okay. Hold on to me. your legs hurt, don’t they?
Can you walk? You can lean on me more.
I’m sorry for making you push yourself.
I can’t go down this place holding you, so…
No, it’s not that you’re heavy…
You still worry about that kind of thing in this situation…Girls are tough in a way.
Hey, I’ve been wondering…why aren’t you using your cell phone? If I were in your place I’d…um, probably call the police. There are methods, right?
Uh, of course that would trouble me, but if you’d do that I could leave you and run away alone. Sorry.
I wouldn’t want it to become a matter for the police, though…Then I’d really have no place to run away to, so to say.
I’m also wondering what I’m saying so late in the game. I ran away voluntarily and now I’m trying to find other ways out. Doesn’t it makes you sick?
[05:04]
stay with me until the end? Even if you do, you’ll get nothing out of it. Mike is over already. When tomorrow comes, it’ll be already…
Ah, right…I met you as Ogawa Atsushi. I’m just me and not Mike or anything else, huh? I forgot that identity of mine…There was not a moment I haven’t been Mike after my debut either way.
I seem more adultish on television? Is that so? Then maybe I’m just ogawa Atsushi now.
Eh? Well, I said I’ll walk you to your lodging but…is it okay?
Yeah…a promise is a promise. I got it. Then I’ll have you stay with me until we get there.
You…really are kind. I wouldn’t be flattering you at such a time.
Ah…have I been talking too much? I can’t seem to calm down if I don’t say something. I’ve been thinking while walking and speaking…about the dimension of what I’m about to lose now…
Regret,huh…? Yeah…it would be a lie if I said I don’t have any regrets, but I can’t say I have any either. Because I still think I can’t sing. With the way my feelings are right now, today’s live would have been a mess. My mind’s still blank and I can’t remember how I used to sing.
I believed that I was doing my best. Maybe it wasn’t enough. Maybe I should have done my best more seriously, more determined…I didn’t have any intention to cut corners, but I wonder what wasn’t good enough.
I…why…why did I come to this?
[08:00]
I kept releasing hit songs after my debut, and every time I released a new song it got in the single chart…my songs were often used in commercials dramas…it seemed like there was no Japanese who didn’t know the name Mike.
I also thought I was great at the beginning. I was being conceited both in the good and the bad way.
But lately I began to be so confused…I became like a machine that only made songs and sang them just like it was being told.
At the beginning I just liked it. Both composing and singing. I got in the industry at 14 and lived my life after that surrounded by adults. Those around me didn’t treat me like a child and I tried to act like an adult like they wanted me to, but…I kept trying to be who I wasn’t and that became the ordinary. That’s why I thought that complaining is something I definitely shouldn’t do.
I thought that if they found me a bother and if they thought I was useless, that would be the end…but…I eventually realized that only liking doing what I do isn’t enough to keep me walking forward.
I couldn’t catch up with various things, they didn’t go as I wanted them to, and I think that I also found blame in the others.
If you think about that,