When I'm around my closest friends or people that I'm closest to I can be myself and I feel comfortable.
But once I'm around people. I lose complete sense of myself. My voice gets softer (I literally cannot speak louder if I tried) and I'm incredibly tense. This has been happening for years. It's like I see everyone else as the other and only see close friends as being people that I can be myself with. It's completely subconscious and I honestly do not know how to change. I don't know myself anymore. Around my friends I'm sarcastic and comfortable, around everyone else I'm incredibly passive. I have severe public speaking anxiety too...to the point where I'll start shaking and forgetting what I have to say.
Does anyone else have these problems? How do I solve this?
Edit: you guys are so cool. thank you so much