My Dearest Pa,
I have asked the elders twice, also President Paiboon for a priesthood blessings, to ask for guidance, wisdom, direction, strength, courage and peace of mind. I did not tell them any detail what happened. Yesterday I had an urge to go to Udon to ask President Wongsagorn to give me another blessing. I mentioned to him briefly the situation and also said I really DO LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
I prayed about it last night, had a comforting dream. I prayed about it again this morning, and really feel good about it. I think I got the answer for both of us! This is really going to be an extreme move for both of us, but this is our lives! I never know I love you so much, and I am sure deep down inside you still love me. I PROMISE you that I will take care of you and your family the best I can. I will move to Chiengrai and we can start a small business to bring in more income. We will do everything right. We will get married, and have Pratan Seur as our witness. We will have a temple marriage in Hong Kong and be sealed for time and eternity. We will grow old together. Again you know I always keep my promise!
Like I just said this is going to be an extreme move for both of us. But we can do it! It's our love, our lives! John might be a nice man, but you really don't know him that well like you know me. We might had quite a few challenges on the way, but I know the love and bond between us is far greater than you and him. It's only a marriage of convenience. I really don't think you will be happy in a long run. What we are going to do might cause a temporary criticism from friends and neighbors, WHEN YOU BEAK UP WITH JOHN NOW, but again it's our lives! I know down in the future you, mom and even the kids will be a lot happier. It will go down in the history book as proof and example of pure love between two people.
I know we both have got our answers from the priesthood blessing I received from Pratan Seur yesterday! I pray and pray about it, and I feel good. We both have wasted so much time, so don't wait any longer. Let's us do it now!
The email I sent yesterday was full of sadness and darkness. But today is full of hope, sunshine and happiness.
Remember all those times we watched the sunset in Nongkhai, Chiengrai and Pattaya? We can do it now hand in hand with real romance and happiness, and don't have to have that gloomy feeling thinking of time to part again. We will take trip and drive around the country. Will travel oversea when opportunity arises. We can even go serve a mission together. This is the rainbow after all those rain storms we have been going through together. We can be free and really live a happy and joyful life together into the sunset.
My dearest Pa, please fast and pray about it. I know you will get the same answer. This takes courage and faith. Ether 12:6 Witness comes after the trial of faith.
Love you more and more everyday,
Direk
ps. Please call me and we can plan on this in detail.