And all through this time I was still hurt by what people had said to me in high school. And I had forgiven them but I didn't really mean what I said. In 2012 I left the army and I worked on a dairy farm again. That year, my pastor asked me if I wanted to go to fiji with my church for a missionary trip. So I went there for two weeks. And it really opened my eyes to God's Word and how real God is. So that really encouraged me to come back to God and serve him.