Ok I see I'm speaking crazy. So I'll stop. What I will tell you is this: I love you! I want you here. I'll stay so you can help your sister. I'll do what I can to get past my feelings. Whatever the future holds, I'll remain by your side.
I do not want you to leave me now or ever! I have no desire to die before my time. Do you know what it's like to not have anyone I can just talk to?
Part of me hopes you read all I've Witten but part of me hopes you do not read any of it except for this part.
It's obvious I've upset you for no reason. I'm presently sick. I'm going after medication now. I have no choice but to wait and see how much damage I've caused. I'm the one who will suffer the most. I'm done writing now.