I sigh with relief using a volume that Rudei can't hear.
The same feeling comes to me when I fed Nora.
The feeling of being a mother.
How unbelievable.
Why did I think I wouldn't be willing to feed Aisha.
Why did I think I will unhappy during the time I feed her.
Why did I think I need to tolerate that.
The answer is simple. I know it.
Because I'm a mother.
In the end there's no difference. A Meris follower or something else.
[She seems to be enjoying herself.]
[That's because mother is delicious.]
[Please don't give flaterry like that.]
Rudei seems to be enjoying himself watching Aisha feeding on me without any unhappiness, and relaxes.
He must have thought this is also the responsibility of protecting his sisters.
That's really admirable.
It's not a lie that he wants to be a brother respected by his sisters.
[It's not flattery. I can still remember the taste.]
[Are you for real?]
I smile while I stroke Aisha's head.
After a while Aisha also finishes drinking, and she leaves my chest.
I place her back on the cradle and she starts to sleep like Nora.
Rudei uses an expression gentler than the usual to look at me and Aisha.
[Rudei.]
[Yes, what is it?]
[Can I touch you?]
[....... There's really no need to ask me. Just touch me if you like to.]
Rudei sits beside me and raises his head to me.
I stroke him on the head softly.
Rudei has never made me worry since his birth, so I didn't really like a mother when he grew up, but recently it feels different.
I feel that from the bottom of my heart that I'm this child's mother.
[........]
I feel a sudden burst of warmth, and I look up to where it's coming from.
The summer glow is pouring in from the windows.
A scenery of endless golden-colored wheat fields outside the window.
A peaceful summer afternoon.
I feel really content.
[It's great if things can continue like this.]
[Yes.]
Rudei agrees with me.
He must also feel at peace during this time.
But what makes me feel happy is Rudei's presence.
If it's not for Rudei, a follower of Meris like myself will bemoan the fact that I have become one of two wives, and I would have left this house with Nora, or blame Aisha and Lilia.
Luckily Rudei is around.
If he's not a clever and wise child, I wouldn't experience something like this now.
[Rudei.]
[What is it?]
[Thanks for being born]
Rudei looks like he's at a loss.
Then, scratching his head, he says with embarrassment.
[I should be the one thanking you.]
I laugh again when I see Rudei's cute actions.