Helplessness
In all the in-depth interviews and FGDs the children expressed their deep feelings of helplessness. The feeling stemmed from their fear of future survival as there was intermittent interruption and decrement in the flow of funds. As the result of this and other things, like lack of trust and love from people they, look at the future nega-tively. Some children wished if they were not born and felt that life was not worth living. A 15 year old boy with HIV/AIDS described his feeling as:
“I lost my mom and dad in two consecutive years. Now, there is no one who bothers about me. I do no share my problems with anybody since I do not trust them. Moreover, the officials may fire me out if I make any mistake…The future is dark.”