I don't forget our talks. But my mind is a constant battle.
A warzone in my head. It's why I don't sleep. I contemplate everything constantly. Life is so crazy and I can't ever shut my mind off. I'm too busy focusing on how the universe works and why I'm here.
Extreme in all aspects of my life. Ups and downs. Always.
I'm not easy to be involved with.
Being friends with me isn't even easy. My universe is different than everyone else's.
Because of my reality and what I've experienced... I have to constantly question EVERYTHING. every aspect.of my reality.
My instincts are often pulling me in different directions from things I "want"
Living in my head is a battle everyday. It never eases up. It just has better or worse moments.
I'm insane.
I think I'm cursed to be alone.