Confused .. Frustration sets in .. Limited in options hopeless as where to begin ... Head racing in thoughts I'm chasing .. Give, I take ,I let go .. Stay ... Oh yes .. please oh god hell no ... Each thought suggesting .. By one to another .. Theses thoughts I'm digesting ... In all this I feel the struggle to be a mother ... Dark my eyes are .. shut .. And open ..My heart stabbed a bleeding cut ... Life is what my heart now gives my body ... Emotion now drained , emotion is my ... Pain ... shame is all I feel just a female head held down in shame .... I don't want to care .. All thoughts now on lips to tongue I need to share .. Digging deeper ... Is there away to control theses thought is there an inn keeper ... More I fall in side my mind .. The harder it is for answers to questions for me to find ... Question with question .. Suggestion only suggestion .. Answers in my question ...no answers to ease my racing head .. Swelling my tears I feel them shed ... My path blinded I walk no hands held out to let this girl be lead ... So inside this mind that races .. Inside this heart beating dead life .. It is to the end of my road that is decided by the blades of faded shades .. Body temple or tomb .. Let my racing mind shut and end it's pain soon