Dear Puie
I'm so grateful that you write to me, and because you pray for me. When I'm out of hospital I will try to go to a church and find christian friends. I think Alf advice me to do that.
How are Alf doing? I try to call him today. I have to thank him. But Alf did not answer.
Dear Puie, for me every night is so horrible. I wake up and scream 2-4 times each night. My heart are beating so fast. And I'm so so afraid. I'm afraid deep into my soul several minutes after I wake up. I know in my brain that everything is OK, but I'm still afraid. It's so awful. Yes, so awful and painful. I see the nurses, but I'm still so afraid. I feel so sorry for Alf living so alone.
Dear Puie, please tell me how Alf are doing? Alf are so lucky because he have you. I think you talk with him «all day». Alf really deserve such a goodhearted girl like you. But Dear Puie, please ask Alf about his nights. Maybe Alf will not tell you how it is, because Alf will not make you worried? Because Alf are such a gentleman. But Dear Puie, try to talk with him about the nights. I'm so sure, Alf also need so much support. Alf was totally exhausted on Monday. He fainted and was «away» in about ten minutes, when we was safe. I'm worried about Alf. Alf must have nerves of steel and for sure a heart of gold.
Dear Puie, thank you again for your loving words. I'm so grateful deep into my heart.