I don’t understand well the last half of your email,
“I suffered, the better to others that I face money.
I don't think you'll see that I saw the old money.”
But, I almost understand the first half of your email.
I’m very sad to hear that you cannot sleep well.
Probably, worry makes you spend sleepless nights.
Take care, don’t damage your health by sleeplessness.
You are not alone.