As I recovered, I tried to picture how committing suicide would affect my family. Whilst peering down into my younger sister's gleeful eyes, I imagined what it would feel like to have an older sister one day, and then the next day to not. Then,l made a resolution: "If I can't live for myself, I'll live for her instead," l thought. And in 10 years' time, I'll be looking back with a family of my own and a dream job. It will be worth it.