not telling doesn't mean hiding, I've done nothing wrong or disloyal, even though I have no such responsibilities to follow so, thus I have nothing to be ashamed of. In front of her, i abandoned lying, but she never believed, and I never expect her to. my life path is adjusted becos of her, and she can easily overthrow everything due to solvable issues between two. that's the temper I need to continuos to deal with if I decided to stay with her, and she decides to overcome this and upcoming hardships we are about to face.