My parents never got a long and had an abusive relationship. My mother thought she did the right thing for us to keep the family together, even though I always told her getting divorced would be better. We wouldn't have to watch her get beaten, listen to screams at 3am in the morning. Finally my parents got divorced. I thought my life would take a turn for the better but it didn't.
My mother has had an affair with a married man, on going for almost a decade now since her divorce. The situation has became uncomfortable and deeply upsetting for me when she welcomed him into our home and daily lives, insisted that I see him as a father. I haven't been able to see my mom in the same loving light since. That was and still is all so wrong to me.
It really hurts me, to feel like I lost the mother I used to know, and also feel like I am wrong to be judgmental of her. I can't support her without compromising what I fundamentally believe is right or wrong. It really pains me to think our relationship will never be the same, she'll never be the same person I looked up to and couldn't speak a bad word about. I can only imagine how hurtful it would be for her if she knew I have in a way, loved her less, for the majority of the last decade.