He takes a deep breath and tries to look up front, but his chest feels tight when he sees Tanaka and Yamaguchi sitting together, discussing about something h cannot bring himself to pay attention to. It just hurts, it hurts to see how the most special person to you doesn’t see you that way. How those smiles and words aren’t for him…no, he needs to stop thinking about it; he’s just hurting himself. At least the pain in his chest reminds him he is alive.