Until you discover the strength and wisdom of God, you will only live in the 'faith' of yourself. You can then only trust yourself, your intelligence, your wisdom and your strength. Have you not let others down ever? Has not your wisdom failed you before? Seek God's wisdom and strength with all your heart and you WILL discover Him. Jer 29:12-14a. God's ways don't always make sense to us, but He will never fail you.