and as i was catching up with everything i had missed over the last five years with super junior, i stumbled across animal farm. i think that’s where it started, honestly–a small show on adopting dogs, more focused on sungmin and ryeowook. ryeowook chose ddabong, a small dog, not very lively compared to the dog sungmin chose, and i always supposed that’s because ryeowook just has a really strong maternal instinct. he wants to take care of things, wants to make people happy–and dogs are really no exception. but ddabong was sick, and eventually passed away. and as jongwoon was still in the room with ddabong to say his goodbyes, ryeowook was outside in the hallway because he couldn’t handle it. and he sat there, trying not to cry–saying that he felt bad, he felt awful because it felt like he left ddabong alone, abandoned him and left him at the vet’s to stay overnight, the way he was originally abandoned in the dog shelter. he even stood up and tried to get away from the camera. and in that moment, i saw…i don’t know what i saw. i saw this boy with a heart three sizes too big, this boy with bony wrists and frail body, and i wanted nothing more than to be there for him.