set myself up in this way and maybe some others can relate. I have found that I hang all hopes for happiness on the actions of a select few (actually just one person) and so when they don't follow through or things don't work out I am devastated! And I am not talking about life changing disappointments here, more like unreturned phone calls or emails! I let these things ruin my whole day!! It is ridiculous, and I know it, but it continues to happen. Already struggling to stay out of the hole of depression, this just makes things worse! This person is so important to me and makes me so happy most of the time. I know the issue is with me and I am afraid of pushing them away with my "crazy"! Thanks for listening .