I can imagen and probably understand why you deleted the line messages.
I want to share the following to prevent you makong mistakes.
I know things are confusing for you in many ways. And probably make you very desparate.
The action you have done by deleting implies a lot for you and shows that you feeling and try to deal with it. The first time to stopped doing it now you did.
Means you are really unhappy with what is going on in your private life and want to cover this and try to forget that what you want and need is there for you. Only how to do.
Deleting is a three stage action that has to be comfirmed.
Digital information is protected under Law, national Law and international Law. In several sections of the Law. Beside the genral section and the crominal section also the interlectual property section as post section.
What you have done is and act that falls under the criminal and section.
For company reason to terminate the contract directly. And very difficult to get new work you lie and can do because of this.
We all understand the things that happend in your life.
Understand does not mean that what you did is approved or allowed to do.
Bewise and see this as a lession.
Also how desperate you are and not happy because of what you need andcwant you not will have in your private life and relation as it is now.
Whish you al the wisdom to solve the problem and prevent you do things that are driven by the unhappyness and not feeling good as showed bt the action you did.