Chali, essentially I may have certain understanding for a person that takes such a bad decision, but who still is fully conscious of the gravity of the situation. Someone who considers the alternative options - like having someone picking you up, or taking a taxi. What really troubles me here is the way you just see it as another wild fun thing, and simply laugh about it without thinking at all about what it really means. I would have expected that from a teenager that just started driving, that is not mature enough to see things and their implications in their broader sense, but not from a 29 year old woman who after years of experience with professional responsibilities in society and with people, nor from a woman that believes she is ready to found a family and all that it comes with it. I know there are cultural differences between Europe and Thailand in the view on drinking and driving, but I really think it's a question of personal maturity here and in which stage of your life you currently are. The main question you should be asking yourself is if you really are ready to make important decisions in your life - and related to that, if you are ready to found a family now, as you tell me. If you cannot even take enough responsibility to make the right decisions regarding yourself, how on earth do you imagine taking good decisions in your relationships, marriage and family? In the end, this is more about you than about what I think. I don't want to change you Chali. But I do know what I look for in a woman, you need to think about whether you have that or not...