What do do when a big hole suddenly appears in your you life? You ther fall into it, or you start to fill it up Jacky was r home in England. To me, it all emed happen in a bad dream. Everything that happened after that seemed like a dream too. ot of papers to There we l in, meetings to go to and trips back to England. But there was one thing clear in my head: I wanted to stay in Como. Jacky would have wanted me to stay. That was a gocd dream I didnt want to go of My family and Jacky's family thought I should return to Britain, to be with the people I knew well people who cared about me. I knew that was not right. That felt like I was running away. I had to return and do things my own way.