I did. I'm selfish, lazy, and narcissistic. It feels like there's nothing I can do about it. I'm a sack of bones and chemicals and my actions and feelings are a product of that.
It's why I'm alone; why my ex left me; why my friends don't call. It's why I hate myself. It's why I feel I deserve to be depressed.
I'm not looking for consolation or for anybody to try to convince me that I'm not a bad person, because I know I am. If you could examine my motivations and actions in the past you'd agree.
So, am I alone? Anybody else out there feel they deserve to hate themselves? How do you deal with it?