I understand all life has faced bad things before.
If let me speak from my sense I feel you, what you may ever face.
The unrequited love in the past.
(And I'm not sure that can be called the love or not)
Maybe you may have still feelings embedded with women in your teens,
Maybe when you begin to grow as an adult, you've met a women who to cheat you.
But that I do not understand about you.
Seems you have fear of severely to people, sure include me.
Your behavior like ever get experienced heavy events as severely.
And sure, I still do not know your background well enough.
But if what I said, my sense that feel about you is correct.
I probably need to end the debate.
Why?
Because no matter what I say anything away. You will never understand.
Why?
Because of the past,
you make me feel that you never let your self know me freely with your heart.
But if you really want to know the details discussion from me.
I'll tell you a little.