Dear Sukanda. In many ways you are the woman of my dreams. But I also have to be the man of your dreams and even if I try to open up my heart to you I ferl that you just joke and pit me down. So I become more and more afraid to have feelings for you.
I think it's wonderful that you want to come and meet me. But I am afraid in my heart to be hurt by you. I feel I don't know you and that we are still very far apart. Some times I ferl that I am not right for you. Maybe I am not a supermodel on the outside but I have been working out really hard ever since I met you to look better for you.
But most important is that I have a good and strong heart. But my heart is becoming afraid of you because you make fun of my heart