I kept all problems to myself (there were problems about family, love, money and work at the same time.) I used to thought of suicide, To run away from all problems but I had to stop thinking that. Because I would not to be a coward. I'm lucky to have to made merit and pray everyday. Time help treat mental strength more and made me have consciousness, wisdom and meditation. I practice at the temple. When I feel nervous and worried about a lot of problems. "I don't think I will tell my parents, brothers and sisters, friends,Relatives or others, everyone will see my smile, but pain and weep when alone. I don't want anyone to worry about my problem. After my parents to take care of my grandmother.My grandmother is sick, and painful bladder.? My parents are trying to go to the hospital. But I don't know the cause of the illness, grandma. Until the hospital ever coming back again,The doctor said she had colon cancer. But because she is very old and therefore should not be treated with chemotherapy. The doctor will cure her symptoms only.Everyone in my family going to hide her from her illness, we fear you will shock and no strength to fight with a serious disease.? My family at cost with many treatment.My mother is very serious, because I have to work with, because I have to take care of her at the hospital. And I have to take care of the eye and my daughter, and sell the shop for me.So me and my sister to work. To get the money is paid me. And all the expenses in the house.