I wake up in the morning," she went on, "and think, "Why bother getting up? Why bother eating? Why bother breathing?" Me too, sweetheart," Macon said. "Macon, do you suppose that person has any idea? I want to go and see him in prison, Macon. want to sit opposite him and I'll say, "Look at me. Look. You didn't kill just the people you shot; you killed other people as well. What you did goes on forever. You didn't just kill my son; you killed me you killed my husband. Do you understand what you did?" Then when I'm sure he does understand, that he really does realize, I'm going to pull out a gun and shoot him between the eyes.' "Sarah, it's bad for you to talk like this. "Oh? How am I supposed to talk?" "You'll you'll burn up. It's not productive"Oh, productive! Well, goodness, no, let's not spend our time on anything unproductive.' Macon rubbed his forehead. "Sarah, I just feel we can't afford to have these thoughts. "Just walk away, Macon. Just pretend it never happened. Go rearrange your tools, why don't them up from biggest to smallest instead of from smallest to biggestithat's always fun." "Goddammit, Sarah--' "Don't you curse at me, Macon Leary!' They paused. Sarah said, "Well, anyhow." So guess you'll come by while I'm gone,' Macon said. "If that's all right.' "Yes, certainly," he said.