I understand if you dont want proff

I understand if you dont want proffessional help.. it usualy means hospital and that is never fun.
You can get healthy on your own, it does work.. you just have to want it.. and really fight for it. And of course when your trying to recover on your own, its not as easy...
when your at hospital and have proffessional help... its easier.. you have a meal plan, you have people watching you, making sure you eat... dont exercise. They make sure you gain weight... they help you recover.
While your trying to recover on your own, the most important thing is that you have support...that is very important. its almost impossible, if you have no one you can talk to, no one who will be there beside you when things are hard... or someone to remind you thatrecovery is worth it. Someone to make you smile.. whether thats your mum, best friend, boyfriend.. etc etc (but i dont know, when your sick its so easy to lose contact with people.... and if you have lost contact... its just to take contact with people again, and let them know your trying to recover and hope that they can help you, support you.) Recovery isnt easy, its a mental battle everyday.. and facing your body isnt easy while in recovery...
Ok... the best thing to do is start off small... 3 meals a day, and then add on snacks... so you have 5-6 meals a day. That is the best thing.. its good for the metabolism anyway... its just healthy to eat 5-6 meals a day.
And when your eating 5-6 meals a day aim for 2500-3000 calories... thats what you need to gain weight. But start off with roughly 1000-1200 calories, and then raise it.
Really, calories shouldnt be counted... but when your making a meal plan, then i guess you should know how mcuh your eating.
Find foods that you like... it makes eating easier... so..i guess thats up to you to decide what you like and want to eat.
But i suggest to eat full fat foods. It makes gaining weight easier.. and that is what is needed in recovery. dont forget that