Hello Ami, my LOVE!!
I had a good night sleep and my day started the same as the days in the last period. When I woke up you were already there in my thoughts and writing to you is giving me the nice feeling again that you are with me!!!
I hope you didn´t get me wrong writing to you yesterday that I don´t want your deeds. I think we had this before, I don´t believe that there is a single human beeing without any falts in the world! I want you with your falts and I hope you´ll accept my falts as well!! I´m not a hero or a superman without any falts but what I can promise to you is that I will treat you nicely as the woman on my side!! There might be days or short periods where we don´t love each other that much or even have argues with each other but a good relationship will will get over that! What I want is having you as the loving woman on my side for ever and I want to be the loving man on your side for ever!!!!!!!
I want to tell you a bit more about my illness that you know what you will get with me better. Unfortunately they still haven´t found out what this illness is caused by. The most probable theorie is that it is caused by a virus infection the patient had in her/his childhood. Because they haven´t found out the real reason for that illness yet there is no way of finding a medicament yet to heal that illness completely. But fortunately they already have found medicaments for stopping that illness increasing too much. I have to do my daily injection myself now for over 10 years and that did a good job for me up to now! When I heard the first time that I will have to inject myself every day it was a real horror for me. But now it is just something normal in my life to do every day like having breakfast or so!
The reason that I´ll see a specialist next Friday is getting a competent opinion whether the needed inoculation for Thailand could do me any harm with my illness what is more probable than less. I told you yesterday that we will find a way getting together even when I can´t travel to Thailand! There is one way I can think of already and perhaps you can think it over. If you could agree and find a way to come over to me first to get known each other personally and make the final decision whether we want each other for the rest of our lifes you will make me to the happiest man of the world!!! Of course there are a few things to think about whith this solution. First of all I promise to you that you do not have to worry about the costs for that! I will book your flight and I will pay for any costs that are involved with that!!! For exemple you will need a health insurance coming over to Germany. One other thing I can solve for you already: You of course will be my guest for the time staying with me! Perhaps we would be even able than to start looking for a home for us 3 for our future!!
I do not forget I will have to ask your parents for your hand before getting together for good but I´m shure we will find a way for that as well if we really want each other!!!
I hope you do not think now I want to transfer my problem to you! I´m still seeing the specialist next Friday and when he gives me the "GO" I will come over to you first. If the specialist is giving me a warning for my health to go over to Thailand on next Friday I don´t think I can risk travelling over to you. I´m shure you will understand that! And I´m shure you want a man in the best constitution you can get me in, do you?
After your nice message from yesterday and writing this to you my hope has increased again that I will get you as the loving woman on my side!!!!!
With all my love!
Yours Bernd xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx