This is so fucking hard..i cant sleep and i have info session again tomorrow at 945am.. i cant eat i cant do anything im stuck here like an idiot..iduno what to do all i think about is you..im not used to it when you're not around when i dont see you when we dont talk..i cant even look or touch my fone im just looking on it waiting the sound of line hoping that you'll come back..you dont even know how much i misses you..you dont even know how annoying this feeling right now..i cant even listen to my music and play guitar or sit on my pc or laptop when i did all i think about is you those nights that we're still talking those vid called staying up late..now i have no more reason to stay up late waiting for someone i have no one to lean on whenever im stressed out or mad on something i have no one to share my thoughts or happening on my shitty life no more youre gone now ..i know you want to be alone and you dont want to hear anything from me i understand that..thats why im sorry if im making this msge..i know i am pathetic i promise you that this is the last time that youll read or see me msging you.. i just want you to know how i feel and my thoughts for the last time and i dont need any sympathy..my feelings for you is true all the things and words i said to you are all true and came from inside me and ive learned to care for you now i do care for you a lot and im always worried about you..and about going there to see you is my ultimate goal and im looking forward to that now iduno..i want to say sorry for all the things ive done that not supposed to happen but i still did bcoz i am stupid and shit..i am really so sorry..im sorry if i fall for you and im sorry if i expect from you..i am really sorry.. i dont wanna lose you i want to stay,see,talk and everything with you.. but remember what i said before?im willing to give up everything just for you and the only reason that im going to leave you is when you ask me to when you feel done with me..but i didnt expect that coming to fast..what i can do?nothing..i am just nothing from the start anyways thats why i cant blame you that..
And i forgot to tell you today that when everytime you msge me on line this morning while im sleeping iduno if im dreaming or what but everytime you msge me i can see that you were there beside me touching my face waking me up it feels like you waking me up coz you msge me.. didnt you notice that everytime you msge me i replied right away in like 2-3mins after your msge..im not like that whenever im sleeping its hard to wake me up even calls im not able to wake up so easily specially a sound like line no way im not able to heat it.but todaywas different i always wake up after your msge thats why you ask me if im up...im not and if you noticed my reply was to short coz im just half awake..iduno i dont have any idea why that happens..btw today i went out with my buddy we supposed to take picture on this small island in vancouver downtown but while we heading there it rains thats why we end up on a bubble tea house then we just decided to go to my old work just to eat and while we're there i took my left over stuff and i miss the food so bad..then we just went home after that..and while we're heading home you msge me right and i told you..then when we got home 3 more buddies came over they brought beers and chips thats the time when you said about the you feel bored on everything..while we texting they were there i just sat infront of my pc while we were texting..i didnt talk to them properly i just sat there like an rock statues pretending that i am okay..but im not..this is the last time you will see this calling you my hime..my hime all i want is you to be happy always stay safe always take care of yourself always eat lots and on time dont stressed out to much just relax abit whenever you feel stressed on your work ..try to eat before you go to work and when you get home..get a rest right away when you get home dont stay up to late..dont get lazy to wash your hair all the time..my hime my princess i hope you find the right guy for you the guy that wont hurt you the guy who deserves you the guy who will treat you his princess no matter what...find the guy who is much better than your exs..im not going to say better than me coz i know im no better..i hope i made you abit happy even in just a short period of time and hope one day you will remember that once in your life someone named Eton much known as Jason Villanueva came to drop by in your life..all the songs that i showed you reminds me of you specially a thousand miles thats you only you only for you..I'LL WAIT FOR YOU but this time im not going to expect that you still coming back for me..so yeah my hime i guess this is it.. time for me to say goodbye this is what you want anyways..you know that this is not okay with me and it will never be..My Hime Ms. Supattra Sutonnawat i will going to miss you so badly i will miss everything about you and i really fallin love with you..for the last time i will tell you that i love you i do and i miss you..bye..='(