I will come to see you as soon as I am in Thailand in the next two weeks. Don't be sad that I do not offer any help to you right now, you know very well that it is very risky to trust anyone on the internet. Anyway, be strong,keep yourself safe, and stay stay away from all evils.
For your education, don't think that it is too late and you have to be well educated. All you need to do is think about what you want to learn.