Rose (a symbol of beauty and love)
First, let me say that I do not want to fight anymore. It hurts you, and it hurts me. I have not slept, I do not eat food, and my family is very concerned because they think I am sick. This has been a living hell for over a month.
I am not a perfect person. But I have done nothing to you to deserve this.
Secondly, the only purpose of this email is to help us to heal.
I was going to say all of the lies that you have told me, point each one out, which would only start another fight. I will not do that. You know better than I do that essentially every conversation that we have had for the last three months you have lied to me. Some big, some small. Of course, when you are cheating on me, every conversation is essentially a lie when you do not tell me what is really going on.
I want you to consider one thing. You are lying to yourself as much, or more than you are lying to me.
We will never have truth between us, and I will never be able to trust you or anything you say until you first stop lying to yourself.
What do I mean? It is very simple.
PLEASE READ THIS PART VERY CAREFULLY
Somehow you are trying to tell yourself, that lying to me is okay. You try to tell yourself that it is okay because:
1. You do not want to hurt me-that is crazy. What you have done, and then the lies are what cause the pain. Telling me the truth will be very painful, but necessary. Continuing with the lies hurts more. The real reason you do not tell me the truth is simply selfish. You do not want to lose me, and you do not have the courage or honesty to accept the responsibility for what you did.
2. You also tell yourself that if you tell me the truth, I will never speak to you again. In fact, it is the constant lying that caused me to close Skype. It will again as soon as you lie to me again. You said this to me. You said it is a problem, because if you tell me the truth then…well, you know.
3. You tell yourself that it is possible to have both Bryan and me in your life. I hope I do not have to point out that that is the biggest lie. It is impossible. You have already chosen, and it is not me. I know that.
4. The cheating has somehow been my fault, or that it is justified. You have done everything in your power to start a fight with me about Opal every time I tried to get you to tell the truth. Let me point out that you hooked up with Brian, cheated on me, and it went on for two months before you started those fights.
5. You keep starting a fight with me, so you feel better about dumping me and being with Bryan. That was not necessary, and really mean. You should have just broken up with me, and gone to him. Beating me up emotionally and stepping on our love was just a way to make you feel good about breaking up with me. I have ACCEPTED what has happened. I have no choice. I lost you to him.
Stop lying to yourself. Then stop lying to me.
You want to say we will never talk about Brian again but that is impossible. You have not told me the whole truth. Once you have told me the whole truth, then we will stop talking about it.
The truth????
· When was the last time you saw him?
· When is the next time you will see him?
· I am sorry, but you have now been with him three months. You want me to believe that he kissed you once. Do I really have to explain how ridiculous that is? Do you have any idea what your eyes look like when you try to say that? If you cannot tell me the truth about that-regardless of the pain-then you lie to both of us.
Please, do not try and tell me you simply refuse to tell me the truth or talk about it.
Living a lie, cheating, is killing both of us.
Be a good person. Accept responsibility. Tell me the truth. The entire truth. Do not avoid honesty, and put me out of my suffering. You say you love me. Prove it by stopping the torture. To cheat on me and choose Brian is one thing. I have no choice but to accept that. To keep lying about it is cruel.
I wish I could be there when your father meets Bryan. I would simply ask your father who he thinks is a better man.
Lastly, you cannot get advice from your father, friends or Brian. Or me. None of us know the complete truth. You have lied to all of us. Me the most.
Rose (a symbol of beauty and love)
First, let me say that I do not want to fight anymore. It hurts you, and it hurts me. I have not slept, I do not eat food, and my family is very concerned because they think I am sick. This has been a living hell for over a month.
I am not a perfect person. But I have done nothing to you to deserve this.
Secondly, the only purpose of this email is to help us to heal.
I was going to say all of the lies that you have told me, point each one out, which would only start another fight. I will not do that. You know better than I do that essentially every conversation that we have had for the last three months you have lied to me. Some big, some small. Of course, when you are cheating on me, every conversation is essentially a lie when you do not tell me what is really going on.
I want you to consider one thing. You are lying to yourself as much, or more than you are lying to me.
We will never have truth between us, and I will never be able to trust you or anything you say until you first stop lying to yourself.
What do I mean? It is very simple.
PLEASE READ THIS PART VERY CAREFULLY
Somehow you are trying to tell yourself, that lying to me is okay. You try to tell yourself that it is okay because:
1. You do not want to hurt me-that is crazy. What you have done, and then the lies are what cause the pain. Telling me the truth will be very painful, but necessary. Continuing with the lies hurts more. The real reason you do not tell me the truth is simply selfish. You do not want to lose me, and you do not have the courage or honesty to accept the responsibility for what you did.
2. You also tell yourself that if you tell me the truth, I will never speak to you again. In fact, it is the constant lying that caused me to close Skype. It will again as soon as you lie to me again. You said this to me. You said it is a problem, because if you tell me the truth then…well, you know.
3. You tell yourself that it is possible to have both Bryan and me in your life. I hope I do not have to point out that that is the biggest lie. It is impossible. You have already chosen, and it is not me. I know that.
4. The cheating has somehow been my fault, or that it is justified. You have done everything in your power to start a fight with me about Opal every time I tried to get you to tell the truth. Let me point out that you hooked up with Brian, cheated on me, and it went on for two months before you started those fights.
5. You keep starting a fight with me, so you feel better about dumping me and being with Bryan. That was not necessary, and really mean. You should have just broken up with me, and gone to him. Beating me up emotionally and stepping on our love was just a way to make you feel good about breaking up with me. I have ACCEPTED what has happened. I have no choice. I lost you to him.
Stop lying to yourself. Then stop lying to me.
You want to say we will never talk about Brian again but that is impossible. You have not told me the whole truth. Once you have told me the whole truth, then we will stop talking about it.
The truth????
· When was the last time you saw him?
· When is the next time you will see him?
· I am sorry, but you have now been with him three months. You want me to believe that he kissed you once. Do I really have to explain how ridiculous that is? Do you have any idea what your eyes look like when you try to say that? If you cannot tell me the truth about that-regardless of the pain-then you lie to both of us.
Please, do not try and tell me you simply refuse to tell me the truth or talk about it.
Living a lie, cheating, is killing both of us.
Be a good person. Accept responsibility. Tell me the truth. The entire truth. Do not avoid honesty, and put me out of my suffering. You say you love me. Prove it by stopping the torture. To cheat on me and choose Brian is one thing. I have no choice but to accept that. To keep lying about it is cruel.
I wish I could be there when your father meets Bryan. I would simply ask your father who he thinks is a better man.
Lastly, you cannot get advice from your father, friends or Brian. Or me. None of us know the complete truth. You have lied to all of us. Me the most.
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