Next day.
Alone I proceeded towards Paul's grave.
Paul's grave was towards the outskirts.
It's a graveyard on an elevated hill for nobles.
Paul might find it unpleasant being together with the likes of nobles.
But, the maintenance is better than general use graveyard. He'll have to endure it.
I stand in the snow in front of the round Ranoa style gravestone.
I don't know what Paul's religion was.
I think that he didn't believe in something like God as well.
Even if we were to mistake something like his sect, he was the type of man who wouldn't be bothered by it after all, I'm sure he would forgive us.
In reality, I'm sure it would have been better to make his grave in Asura Kingdom around the Buina Village area though.
This land has no relation or connection with Paul.
But, if I were to make it in a place too far away from my house, we wouldn't be able to visit the grave after all.
I've told Gisu and the others about this place as well.
For the time being, everyone came to visit at one point.
That time each and every one gathered things that Paul likes.
Like alcohol and daggers.
Gisu and Talhand started a grand drinking bout in front of his grave, the grave keeper got angry.
I held the alcohol bottle I bought on the way under my arm and cleaned Paul's grave.
Removing the snow on top of the gravestone, polishing it with the cloth I brought along.
It wasn't a difficult operation at all.
The road on the way to here was shut off because of the snow, but the snow around the grave itself was removed to some extent by the grave keeper.
After cleaning and leaving the alcohol bottle in front of the grave I pray with one hand.
I thought about buying some flowers as an offering, but they weren't selling any.
In this Northern region trying to get your hands on some flowers in winter is difficult I'm sure.
Well, he wasn't a man who had a hobby of admiring flowers.
"Paul..Tou-san. Yesterday, my child was born. It's a girl. Since it's Sylphy's child, I'm sure she'll become a beauty."
I sat in front of the grave and reported it to Paul like this.
"I wanted to show her to Tou-san as well."
If Paul were to see Lucy, I'm sure, he would have jumped around in high spirits until Zenith had chided him.
It's a celebration, saying something like that and drinking alcohol together with me, getting completely drunk, sexually harassing Lilia, and making Zenith shocked.
Such a scene vividly floated in front of my eyes.
Though it's a story only if Paul was safely able to keep on living and Zenith hadn't lost her memories.
"Roxy-sensei has become my wife. I have two wives. The same as Tou-san. I would have liked it if you had taught me how to be ready for times like this."
Thinking about it, that time.
In that labyrinth.
I wonder if it was that sort of thing that Paul wanted to talk to me about.
Knowing that Roxy liked me.
And that I liked Roxy as well.
I wonder if he wanted to teach me how to be ready for having two wives.
"Different from Tou-san, it's not like I suddenly have two daughters, but I think eventually Roxy will get pregnant and give birth to my child as well. That's still far in the future, but it would be nice if I can raise them energetically like Norn and Aisha."
I have no intention of saying bad things about Lilia's education, but I'd like to raise my children impartially to the end.
Without any kind of weird distortions like being half Magic race and such.
"It seems Sylphy thinks that there will be even more wives from here on out in the future though. I don't have such intention, but they do say things that happen twice happen three times after all. That might end up becoming the case.."
I wonder if Paul ever considered marrying Ghyslaine or Elinalize or Vera.
It seems like he had a relationship of the flesh with Ghyslaine after all, I think he would consider it at least once.
Well, Paul thought about things in that area even looser than me, it might be that he never even gave it any thought.
"It might be better for me not to over think about things too much as well?"
After facing the gravestone and asking that I felt like I could see Paul's teasing smile.
It was just the smile and I couldn't hear Paul's words.
But, I'm sure it's not like Paul didn't think about it as well.
I feel that he was always agonizing over it.
Something like fellows that are able to live without thinking in this world, there shouldn't be many of them.
"..Tou-san. I'm a no good son. I have something like memories of my previous life. I couldn't properly love Tou-san."
I stood up while saying that.
Holding the alcohol bottle in my hand I took the first sip.
After savoring the burn in my throat from the strong drink I poured it over the grave.
"But, now I already intend to be a proper son."
Drowning yourself in alcohol and making mistakes like Paul, alcohol might not be all that good of a thing.
But, I'm sure it's fine today.
At any rate, it's celebrations for the birth after all.
"My own child has been born, becoming a parent. Finally, I, understood it. That I was still nothing but a child. That I was just a brat pretending to be an adult with memories of my previous life."
Drinking, pouring, drinking, pouring.
The alcohol bottle quickly went empty.
"Though I feel that I need to quickly become an adult. I'm sure, I won't be able to become one until I make a lot more mistakes. But, it was the same for Tou-san so I'll give my best as well."
I closed the alcohol bottle with the lid and placed it in front of the grave.
"Then, I'll come again. Next time bringing along everyone."
Saying that I faced away from Paul's grave.
A variety of things have come to a close.
Painful things have happened and happy things have happened as well.
But, it's not the end.
I'll still go on living in this world.
I'll go on living.
In order to not regret it no matter when I die.
Seriously. [5]