No, if it really is incurable.
If her future is so bleak, then a little violence is fine.
I'd cooperate.
No matter what, as long as it helps her mood a little.
"I wasn't particularly healthy in the first place."
While I stay silent, Nanahoshi speaks with a sigh.
She sound more composed than I expected.
But Nanahoshi is obviously faking it.
"Getting sick... Although never this bad, I'd catch the cold every year."
Slowly words trickle out.
And I quietly listen.
"My grades aren't bad, but I'm no good with sports. If asked, I guess I'm the indoor type.
Medicine in this world isn't very advanced, right?
Do you know? Maybe it has to do with magic, but people of this world don't even dress their wounds? And because of that they die or lose a limb. It's retarded. All can be prevented with a bit of clean water over the wound.
Because I can't use magic, so I do all kinds of things to stay safe. Avoiding contagious diseases, staying away from crowds, don't eat strange foods...
It's true, from your perspective I might have lived unhealthily, but I exercise at home too! I took care of myself.
Because if I get sick, there might not be a cure.
Rather, if I'm sick, I probably won't be cured.
Because, if I get sick, I probably won't know why...
... Basically, this world, isn't it too weird?
Gigantic monsters too big to support themselves. I don't know what wizardry that is, but aren't they clearly against rules of nature?
Of course, even I, when I came, was a little curious.
Even I played games before. I don't hate sword and magics stuff. I'd be lying if I wasn't excited.
Just a bit, I'm jealous that you were born in this world, and you can live in this world..."
Nanahoshi said, and suddenly shuts up.
Her shoulders tremble.
Slowly, she turns to me.
Face wrinkles.
Tears collected on her swollen eyes.
"I don't want to die."
Like a dam busting, tears come pouring down.
"I don't want to die here! I don't want to die in this weird world! Why? Why? It's too weird! Hey, do you know? I didn't change at all for 8 years! I don't grow taller, and my hair doesn't grow longer! I get hungry, I poop, but my nails never grow. I don't even get periods!"
Nanahoshi throws a nearby water jug.
The jug slams the wall, splatters in loud pieces. Water soaks the bed.
"I'm not a human of this world! In this world I don't even count as alive! I'm basically a corpse! Even so, why? Why do I get sick? Isn't that just too weird? Why am I unlucky like this? I don't want to die! I don't want to die in this strange world!"
Nanahoshi screams, tears keep splattering, and splattering.
"Because I never even had my first kiss! Even though I have someone I like, I never even told him that I love him! I'm really so jealous of you! Everyday so happy, so fulfilling! What? Dad died? Mom got sick? So what? What's so bad about that? At this rate, I won't even see my dad again! If I die, mom won't even know! Just one more time! Dad! Mom! I still remember! I still remember that morning. Dad says he'll come home early. Mom says we'll have fried Saury tonight. I told dad that I'm hanging out with friends, but staying a little out is fine, and complained to mom that I'm tired of Saury already. Why, why did this happen? Dad and mom are probably worried sick about me. I want to go home. I want to see them again. I don't want to die. I don't want to die in this place... Woo.. Hick..."
"..."
I feel a sharp pain in my chest.
I can understand Nanahoshi's pain.
When I first came to this world, I couldn't sympathize.
Can't go back, can't meet again.
Not able to see family once more.
Even if you tell me, I won't understand.
Back then, I probably want to forget those things and just enjoy life in this new world.
But now it's different.
I understand wanting to go back, wanting to meet again.
Everyday is life's greatest treasure.
Once they're gone, they're gone forever.
... Because if they're gone, they're gone forever.
Paul is dead.
Zenith's memories may never come back.
Buina village and that warm home have both disappeared.
From now on, all I can do is protect my own family, my own life.
Sylphy, Roxy, Lucy.
Lilia, Aisha, Norn, Zenith.
If I separate from them, it would be gut wrenching.
If someone disappears, then I'd go to heaven and hell to find her.
If I return to the original world.
If magic like this exists in that world, I'd seek it.
I would do everything I can to return.
"Woo... Wooo...."