There is noone else. Only you in my heart and my life. I am upset at myself because I am not able to come and I try to save but I am not able to save enough in Short time to come there and help parents with their debt so we can keep house too. I am ashamed that I don't have a lot of money to give you everything you deserve. I truly love you and would die to protect you and our family. You are the most amazing thing in my life. Dad got mad at me again that I slept so late in the morning and I had to go work all day on cleaning the house and yard. I've been feeling a lot of stress and hurt in my heart and I know I am not good at expressing all my emotions. I never want you to worry of fear in you heart. I keep hurts to myself so I can shield you from them. I want you to be happy and feel loved not feel sad. I know I was wrong to share my bad feelings and I know I made you sad when I couldn't come back to message you. I try my best pattarakanya. I am just a hurt and broken man and I guess I'm not worth anyones love or care. If my family is upset at me and now my love is too ...what is there to live for anymore. I am truly sorry pattarakanya. My heart is always yours and yours alone forever. My promise to God to love only you is eternal and will never change. Even if I am lost I still hold my love for you close.