Prologue
I pretended to sleep as we rode in the van back to the hotel. I sat by the window in the back, Dongwan was sitting in the middle, and Minwoo was next to him. Eric and Hyesung sat in the middle row of seats, and Junjin was lucky enough to get shotgun. We really needed a bus, or a bigger van because it was cramped. We were wore out from our concert, so everyone was asleep.
I heard Eric and Hyesung talking, I just had my eyes closed as I listened. I was uncomfortable because Dongwan had his legs on me as he leaned against Minwoo. Good thing he wasn't as tall as those who sat up front, or it'll be even more cramped. Minwoo had his arm around Dongwan's neck as he slept.
Eric and Hyesung spoke in whispers so they wouldn't disturb us that were sleeping.
"Hyesung...you did well today."
"Thanks...um...you too."
I could only imagine the smiles they exchanged. Hyesung would give Eric a confused, nervous smile. Eric would slightly squint his eyes and smile brightly at Hyesung, memorized by him. It was Eric's smile that I wanted to see him give me, not the brotherly one he always gives me. I wanted one full of love...admiration.
"Hyesung..." The way he said Hyesung's name made me cringe.
"What?"
"I...lov-" I gripped Dongwan's leg tight, making him wake up yelling in pain.
I opened my eyes and watched as Dongwan took his legs off of me. "Geez Andy...you having a bad dream or something?"
Everyone had turned to looked at me, I frowned at Dongwan, "Sorry about that."
Dongwan smiled, and patted me on the shoulder, "It's fine...I was more scared than in pain."
I noticed Hyesung's scared look, he was afraid that someone would overhear them. Minwoo put his arm around Dongwan's neck, "Did you really have to yell?"
Dongwan grabbed Minwoo's arm, "I guess not...just scared me."
Junjin ignored us as he turned on the radio, situating himself in his seat to sleep more. Hyesung looked out the window crossing his arms. Eric watched as Dongwan leaned against Minwoo again both of them closing their eyes. Eric smiled at me, "Bad dream?"
I smiled back at his friendly expression, "You could say that."
Dongwan plopped his legs onto my lap and mumbled something. At least Dongwan wasn't denying his love for another, unlike Hyesung. Sometimes I wanted to yell at Hyesung and tell him to stop messing with Eric and just confess. Then again that would upset me if they got together...I would be extremely jealous.
Eric turned back into his seat, glancing at Hyesung who stared out the window. Whatever Junjin put the radio on was annoying, it was some young boyband singing about love...as if it was speaking to me. My hands fell onto Dongwan's legs as I watched cars, people, and buildings go by out the window.
We had one more concert to go, and I had thoughts of telling Eric what I felt for him. I wasn't sure if before or after the concert would be good. Or when we got back home, or before we got on the plane. I wasn't sure what would work out best...I had a feeling either wouldn't matter.
He was going to reject me anyways...
ช่วงฉัน pretended นอนขณะที่เรากำลังในรถไปโรงแรม ฉันนั่งหน้าต่างหลัง Dongwan นั่งอยู่ตรงกลาง และ Minwoo ถูกติดเขา Eric และ Hyesung นั่งในที่นั่งแถวกลาง และ Junjin ก็โชคดีพอที่จะได้รับปืน เราจริง ๆ ต้องรถบัส หรือรถตู้ขนาดใหญ่เนื่องจากมันถูก cramped เราได้สวมออกจากคอนเสิร์ตของเรา ดังนั้นทุกคนก็หลับ ผมได้ยิน Eric และพูด Hyesung เพิ่งมีตาปิดเป็นฉันฟัง ผมอึดอัด เพราะ Dongwan มีขาฉันเป็นเขาพิงกับ Minwoo สิ่งที่ดีเขาไม่ได้เป็นสูงเป็นคนที่นั่งหน้าขึ้น หรือมันจะถูกยิ่ง cramped Minwoo มีแขนรอบคอของ Dongwan ของเขาขณะที่เขานอนหลับEric และ Hyesung พูดใน whispers เพื่อพวกเขาจะไม่รบกวนเราที่ได้นอน "Hyesung...คุณทำวันนี้ดี""ขอบคุณ...อึม...คุณไป"ฉันสามารถจินตนาการมากที่พวกเขาแลกเปลี่ยน Hyesung จะให้ Eric ยิ้มสับสน ประสาท Eric จะ squint ตาเล็กน้อย และยิ้มสดใสที่ Hyesung ภาพตามเขา รอยยิ้มของ Eric ที่อยากจะเห็นเขาให้ฉัน ไม่หนึ่งฉันพี่ฉันน้องเขาเสมอให้ฉันได้ อยากหนึ่งเต็มไป ด้วยรัก...ชื่นชม"Hyesung..." แบบเขาว่า ชื่อของ Hyesung ที่ทำให้ฉันประจบประแจง"อะไร""I...lov-" ฉัน gripped Dongwan ของขาแน่น ทำให้เขาตื่นตะโกนในความเจ็บปวดเปิดตาของฉัน และดูเหมือน Dongwan เอาขาออกจากฉัน " Andy Geez...คุณฝันร้ายหรืออะไร? "ทุกคนก็เปิดไปดูที่ฉัน ฉัน frowned ที่ Dongwan, "Sorry ว่า"Dongwan smiled, and patted me on the shoulder, "It's fine...I was more scared than in pain."I noticed Hyesung's scared look, he was afraid that someone would overhear them. Minwoo put his arm around Dongwan's neck, "Did you really have to yell?"Dongwan grabbed Minwoo's arm, "I guess not...just scared me."Junjin ignored us as he turned on the radio, situating himself in his seat to sleep more. Hyesung looked out the window crossing his arms. Eric watched as Dongwan leaned against Minwoo again both of them closing their eyes. Eric smiled at me, "Bad dream?"I smiled back at his friendly expression, "You could say that."Dongwan plopped his legs onto my lap and mumbled something. At least Dongwan wasn't denying his love for another, unlike Hyesung. Sometimes I wanted to yell at Hyesung and tell him to stop messing with Eric and just confess. Then again that would upset me if they got together...I would be extremely jealous.Eric turned back into his seat, glancing at Hyesung who stared out the window. Whatever Junjin put the radio on was annoying, it was some young boyband singing about love...as if it was speaking to me. My hands fell onto Dongwan's legs as I watched cars, people, and buildings go by out the window.We had one more concert to go, and I had thoughts of telling Eric what I felt for him. I wasn't sure if before or after the concert would be good. Or when we got back home, or before we got on the plane. I wasn't sure what would work out best...I had a feeling either wouldn't matter.เขากำลังจะปฏิเสธฉันต่อไป...
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