Dearest Pi,
Jin’s parents and Mr Shimatani came to see me yesterday.
You should know that Jin rejected many very good performance opportunities for my sake. I should be happy because it meant that he has more time to care for me. But when I heard that from Mr Shimatani personally, I felt no happiness at all.
Inevitably, I became a burden to Jin.
Although we were not physically together, I was still a source of distraction to him. Mr Takaguchi is a director that Jin has respected for a long time. That was such a wonderful opportunity, and yet that baka chose to give up…
I have to admit that I’m touched by his decision. I knew he gave that precious opportunity up because of me. But, it wasn't any part of my wish for Jin to become like this because of me.
Jin loves his job so much… he ought to shine on the stage. He deserves better opportunities. Mr Shimatani told me, that was not the first time that Jin rejected work offers. And I never knew about that.
Whenever Jin visited me, he would say that he had no work and was very free. I thought that the jimusho was disappointed in us after the scandal and thus did not make plans to groom Jin for the time being.
I would tell him that he would make it big in the industry. He knew how to write songs and he won awards for acting; he had the potential. People would want to groom him because he was born to be in the industry. In the end, he would be the one consoling me when I get too worried about his future career.
Pi, know something? Jin’s mother cried in front of me yesterday. She was begging me to let go of Jin. She tole me Jin is only in his early 20s and have a bright future ahead of him. If Jin could focus on his career, he would rise to popularity, with opportunities to cut his own albums, and challenging roles in movies.
Mr Shimatani added that if Jin continues behaving like this, he would vanish from the industry within a year. An artiste who is not committed to his work and uncooperative, would not survive in Japan’s entertainment industry.
A year…
Before this, how many years of hard work did Jin put in?
I couldn't rebuke any of their statements. I was with him since young, how would I not know the hard work that he put in?
Mrs Akanishi’s pleas sounded muffled, as though she was talking to me from a distance, “I might do you wrong by saying this. I don’t know what goes on between you boys and your love for each other… but, can you bear to see Jin like this?”
Coulc I? Could I bear to see Jin like that? To see his showbiz career disappear?
I really loved the smile on Jin’s face when he visited me. I loved his smile so much but I couldn't do anything about it. I could only wait for him… I always thought that Jin was mine, but I forgot that he belonged to others too. He, the eldest son of the Akanishi family, the artiste which the jimusho groomed for so many years, and an idol in countless fans’ hearts. There are so many things waiting for him to accomplish. And when I realised that he gave up all these for me, I felt sad.
He loves to sing and he loves to act too. And I knew that he wanted to work with Director Takaguchi for a very long time. Jin spent a lot on time and effort before he could perform on stage.
To those who did not debut like us, Jin seemed like a lucky person. But the public was unaware of the amount of effort invested. But I knew, and I’m sure you knew the amount of hard work Jin had to put in.
The ever-going competition in the jimusho was more intense than anyone outside could imagined. We always pushed ourselves to do better, even to the point of perfection. Injuries from backflips, bruises from wiring, accumulating after one another…. It took a long time to reach to where we were.
Jin was not a born dancer or actor. Imagine how much time he invested and how many things he gave up along the way… He did not get to where he is currently by pure luck. We should know it best since we have been with him since young.
Mr Shimatani wanted me to think about the lives of those that the jimusho gave up on. The type of lives those ‘deserted johnny’s’ lead...
Mrs Akanishi cried, and Mr Akanishi looked at me pleadingly. Although he didn’t say anything, I’m well aware that was the best that he can do after all the atrocities Jin and I created.
After beating about the bush for so long, you should know what I’m thinking of.
I really love Jin very much. A lot, a lot.
But Jin’s only 22 years old. He could do better than this.
If only I’m not around…
i think this chapter's grammar is crappy. i'm kinda braindead from the haze. will try to refine the grammar bit later.
Dearest Pi,
Jin’s parents and Mr Shimatani came to see me yesterday.
You should know that Jin rejected many very good performance opportunities for my sake. I should be happy because it meant that he has more time to care for me. But when I heard that from Mr Shimatani personally, I felt no happiness at all.
Inevitably, I became a burden to Jin.
Although we were not physically together, I was still a source of distraction to him. Mr Takaguchi is a director that Jin has respected for a long time. That was such a wonderful opportunity, and yet that baka chose to give up…
I have to admit that I’m touched by his decision. I knew he gave that precious opportunity up because of me. But, it wasn't any part of my wish for Jin to become like this because of me.
Jin loves his job so much… he ought to shine on the stage. He deserves better opportunities. Mr Shimatani told me, that was not the first time that Jin rejected work offers. And I never knew about that.
Whenever Jin visited me, he would say that he had no work and was very free. I thought that the jimusho was disappointed in us after the scandal and thus did not make plans to groom Jin for the time being.
I would tell him that he would make it big in the industry. He knew how to write songs and he won awards for acting; he had the potential. People would want to groom him because he was born to be in the industry. In the end, he would be the one consoling me when I get too worried about his future career.
Pi, know something? Jin’s mother cried in front of me yesterday. She was begging me to let go of Jin. She tole me Jin is only in his early 20s and have a bright future ahead of him. If Jin could focus on his career, he would rise to popularity, with opportunities to cut his own albums, and challenging roles in movies.
Mr Shimatani added that if Jin continues behaving like this, he would vanish from the industry within a year. An artiste who is not committed to his work and uncooperative, would not survive in Japan’s entertainment industry.
A year…
Before this, how many years of hard work did Jin put in?
I couldn't rebuke any of their statements. I was with him since young, how would I not know the hard work that he put in?
Mrs Akanishi’s pleas sounded muffled, as though she was talking to me from a distance, “I might do you wrong by saying this. I don’t know what goes on between you boys and your love for each other… but, can you bear to see Jin like this?”
Coulc I? Could I bear to see Jin like that? To see his showbiz career disappear?
I really loved the smile on Jin’s face when he visited me. I loved his smile so much but I couldn't do anything about it. I could only wait for him… I always thought that Jin was mine, but I forgot that he belonged to others too. He, the eldest son of the Akanishi family, the artiste which the jimusho groomed for so many years, and an idol in countless fans’ hearts. There are so many things waiting for him to accomplish. And when I realised that he gave up all these for me, I felt sad.
He loves to sing and he loves to act too. And I knew that he wanted to work with Director Takaguchi for a very long time. Jin spent a lot on time and effort before he could perform on stage.
To those who did not debut like us, Jin seemed like a lucky person. But the public was unaware of the amount of effort invested. But I knew, and I’m sure you knew the amount of hard work Jin had to put in.
The ever-going competition in the jimusho was more intense than anyone outside could imagined. We always pushed ourselves to do better, even to the point of perfection. Injuries from backflips, bruises from wiring, accumulating after one another…. It took a long time to reach to where we were.
Jin was not a born dancer or actor. Imagine how much time he invested and how many things he gave up along the way… He did not get to where he is currently by pure luck. We should know it best since we have been with him since young.
Mr Shimatani wanted me to think about the lives of those that the jimusho gave up on. The type of lives those ‘deserted johnny’s’ lead...
Mrs Akanishi cried, and Mr Akanishi looked at me pleadingly. Although he didn’t say anything, I’m well aware that was the best that he can do after all the atrocities Jin and I created.
After beating about the bush for so long, you should know what I’m thinking of.
I really love Jin very much. A lot, a lot.
But Jin’s only 22 years old. He could do better than this.
If only I’m not around…
i think this chapter's grammar is crappy. i'm kinda braindead from the haze. will try to refine the grammar bit later.
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