A year has passed since I have moved out from our home.
I am on my own now after I broke up with my girlfriend, for a whole year I’ve been lost to my family. My sister asks me to visit or even come back.
Was that her request or Yongnam’s?
…
After all we’ve been through.
I thought about it sometimes, that night we didn’t fight, in fact we didn’t even talk. Yongnam just went out and came back… a boy with cherry red lips by his side.
Words left unsaid.
Questions left untouched.
But it happened, he was engaging in sexual act, hard one. That boy was so determined to please.
…I saw my place taken.
He didn’t need me anymore.
It was like driving at full speed to reach a dead end without airbag or safety belt.
Without anyone realized…
…something inside me died that night.
.
I moved out the morning after, never looked back even once.
Yes, I haven’t seen him since.
My sister never presses me on my decision, she might figure out on her own.
‘The numbers of girls and boys were too many… Like he was looking for something.’ Our sister was talking about it now, over our smoking session. She was telling me that Yongnam regularly bring someone home.
Fucking on his bed.
Sometimes mine.
Looking for something?
Why?
‘But he’d been fine, right?’
‘Far from it, brother.’ She took another drag. ‘Too far.’
A year has passed since I have moved out from our home.I am on my own now after I broke up with my girlfriend, for a whole year I’ve been lost to my family. My sister asks me to visit or even come back. Was that her request or Yongnam’s?…After all we’ve been through. I thought about it sometimes, that night we didn’t fight, in fact we didn’t even talk. Yongnam just went out and came back… a boy with cherry red lips by his side.Words left unsaid.Questions left untouched.But it happened, he was engaging in sexual act, hard one. That boy was so determined to please.…I saw my place taken.He didn’t need me anymore.It was like driving at full speed to reach a dead end without airbag or safety belt.Without anyone realized……something inside me died that night. . I moved out the morning after, never looked back even once.Yes, I haven’t seen him since.My sister never presses me on my decision, she might figure out on her own.‘The numbers of girls and boys were too many… Like he was looking for something.’ Our sister was talking about it now, over our smoking session. She was telling me that Yongnam regularly bring someone home.Fucking on his bed.Sometimes mine.Looking for something?Why?‘But he’d been fine, right?’‘Far from it, brother.’ She took another drag. ‘Too far.’
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