I feel very weak and depressed, brain not working, feeling like to do suicide and finish my self. Within very little time you take deep place in my heart and i found difficult to take you out from there. I am feeling very angry and do not understand how to take out my anger. My behaviour was not good towards you, for that I apologize to you. In my life found many liars and always got cheated by someone. my tears are not stopping while writing this but I have to write this. I always tried to make you feel happy and never hide anything from you because by my view we only lie if we do not care for someone. I always know and believe that some day truth will be busted so i never lie to anyone. In this 2 days of our fight I become so week that I feel suffocation to breath also. I try to sleep but i won't sleep more than 20-30 minutes. I feel that you are a magnet and I am a piece of iron and i get attract towards you. me and you both have suffered a lot in our life, so why can't we just keep each other happy now? today also i say I love you very much and you are still in my heart but i do not feel the same. you broke my trust, I never asked you anything about where you are going? why you are going? to whom with you are going? I asked nothing because i trusted you, but now how can i trust you? when you already broke it. I am very firm on my decisions, I never look back if I decided not to look back but i don't know when it comes to you I become week in thinking. maybe my heart do not support my brain in your matter. if you cut my heart you will find yourself in it but if you cut my heart you lose me too. The best way to show my love towards you is never say lie to you and be always loyal to you. Today i feel very embarrassment to say this Kanlaya I joint both my hands in front of you and beg you that if you do not really love me please let me alone and go far away from me and if your love is true and long last till my death than i am ready to forget what happen and ready to start from new beginning. whatever decision you take i am ready to accept it. you sit and think and make your heart strong and let me know what have you decided. yours Ninad...
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