oh you can believe me I cried a lot in that night.
but at the same time its just that what I want and I want to be free!
so of course I have mixed feelings but I try to concentrate on the positive thing because it gives me more power
I have no problems to show my feelings. If I´m sad then I´m sad and dont want to act like happy. and I was very sad in that night.
but on a deeper level there were 2 people who are looking for different things !
I hope I explained it well because its a complicated topic and now easy for you to miss understand me again