I kept all problems to myself (there were problems about family, love, money and work at the same time.) I thought of suicide. To run away but I have to stop thinking. Because I wanted to be a coward. Walk away.I'm lucky to have good time and treat mental strength more and make our consciousness, wisdom and meditation. I practice at the temple. When I feel nervous and worried about a lot of problems. "I don't think I will tell my parents, brothers and sisters, friends,Relatives or others, everyone will see my smile, but pain and weep when alone. I don't want anyone to worry about my problem. After my parents to take care of my grandmother.My grandmother is sick, and painful bladder.? My parents are trying to go to the hospital. But I don't know the cause of the illness, grandma. Until the hospital ever coming back again,The doctor said she had colon cancer. But because she is very old and therefore should not be treated with chemotherapy. The doctor will cure her symptoms only.Everyone in my family going to hide her from her illness, we fear you will shock and no strength to fight with a serious disease.? My family at cost with many treatment.My mother is very serious, because I have to work with, because I have to take care of her at the hospital. And I have to take care of the eye and my daughter, and sell the shop for me.So me and my sister to work. To get the money is paid me. And all the expenses in the house.