I woke this morning like I do every holiday, I little to late! I lay in bed and listen to the quite. It's too quite! Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I look at the day ahead, It's Mother's Day. So roll out of bed, wash the tears off my face and put on my game face to meet the day! I will go to my sisters house to celebrate my mom, my sisters 3 of them, grandma, mother in law. While all of them are sensitive to my feelings, I will sit at the table full of mothers all alone. I'm all ways alone. My parents will pass out cards to all of their children but me, I will smile and watch them read the sweet words of endearment. All the while broken hearted, that I will never have this experience. I'll watch my sisters children play knowing that one day this table will grow with their children, and I will be frozen in time. Never growing my family, we will always be two. I'll get in my quiet car to drive home, I'll make comments to my husband, to make myself feel better. Denial can be good some times. " I'm so tired just watching run after their c
Kids", he will chuckle and say, " yeah I'm glad its quiet now." I will laugh and agree, but I hate the quiet! I just what someone to scream, laugh, say silly things from my back seat, but its quiet! Maybe I should scream, man I want to, something to break this silence. But I will be brave, put on my game face. Tomorrow is another day, full of hope and wonder as I search for my place to fill this silence! To all who understand this I wish you peace on Mother's Day!
Nikki