You have to handle everything. Everything depends on you. I started getting scared of having a sick child; so much that, when I see a scene of a child with any problem, I don’t look at it. Even in my pregnancy I never looked. I said: ‘Oh my God, forgive me, I know it is a sin, but help me losing this child.’ Then I said I was not going to have this baby. God forgive me, because I know it’s a sin, but I don’t want it. I have already suffered a lot. I thought about it, but I was afraid. I felt guilty. At the time I worked here in Salvador. My companion at first was wonderful; after I got pregnant it was terrible. I had no support. I had an abortion and that was it.” (DSC 3)