And thus, it became that I headed towards my brother's place.
When we began our trip, my little sister was in excessively high spirits.
She threw off her the mask that she never took off in front of father and her mother, and took on the mask of a leader, then made unreasonable plans one after another.
She was doing foolish things was what I thought.
That there's no meaning being this enthusiastic when there were two grown-ups here.
That's what I had thought.
But, Ruijerd-san and Ginger-san, obeyed my little sister.
I thought it was unfair.
They went along with my little sister's demands, yet they don't go with what I say.
However, since Ruijerd-san was attentive towards me, I was able to bear it.
He was always watching over me.
But, even he was praising my brother.
Saying that he was an amazing person.
That he was looking forward to seeing him.
Even though he rarely smiled, he was saying that while smiling.
I was sure that my brother that I knew, and my brother that he knows were different.
That's what I had thought.
Ahh.
That being the case, it must've been during this time.
I started to become afraid of my brother.
My brother is strong.
Everybody says that he was a person to be respected.
However, the brother within my heart, was a brother who hit and beat down my father.
Perhaps.
And maybe perhaps.
Would my brother also hit me as well?
If I said something that he couldn't stomach, would I get hit?
I became afraid of meeting him.
To be living under him for who knows how long made me afraid.
I was anxious and couldn't sleep, and I woke up in the middle of the night many times.
Each time, Ruijerd-san would console me.
He would place me on his lap, then he would tell me stories from the past while looking at the night sky.
There were many sad stories, but for some reason I was able to relax and sleep peacefully.