That's the problem Madame Fiona Solis, from each experience you take and it effects the next. It becomes a vicious circle until you think what's the point??? I haven't had a real relationship in over 2 years and that ended coz she cheated and lied, which I did try to forgive and let go, but in the end couldn't get past. Same old shit and as you get older, it's more difficult to tolerate, even if you can understand it better. C'est la vie