Here is my loong post: I can't divorce (we talked, I said what is bothering me...maybe for the first time...and now we will try to work things out coz of Erin and everything...). That is the first thing. Second: I fell madly in love with you and I know that I shouldn't say that but I know the feeling and what is that feeling doing to me (to us)...third: I am happy about all of that coz if (or when) I go to thailand I will find you (now you will say to forget you but you know I will not and you will not forget me too) no matter if you are married, having children or anything..I will find you to hug you and to let you know that you made a deep impression on my soul.
And I will not ask anything from you coz you gave me a lot. ...I'm still learning thai, working out, talking openly with the ones I care (including you) and I also know that if we were closer we would meet and try to be together....thailand is just too far...visas make things soo complicated...I realy feel like I'm loosing a peace of myself so I just do not wannt to lose you