That smile of his was the best thing in the world, well at least in Jongin’s world. And those big warmy brown eyes that looked as if they sparkle even in the dark room. And his lips - those perfect big lips, they looked as they were begging Jongin to kiss them. And then he went for it. Jongin slowly shortened the distance between them but just few inches of Kyungsoo’s face he stopped. He stopped and looked at his eyes, then again at his lips. He hesitated, he didn’t know what Kyungsoo felt towards him and if this will ruin their friendship or if they will even talk to each other or if he’s good enough...
It felt like his brain stopped working when Kyungsoo crushed their lips together. Suddenly breathing became a thing Jongin forgot to do. And his heart, his heart was beating so fast he though it can jump out of his chest. He never thought kissing someone could make him feel this way. He had done it plenty of times with his ex girlfriend but nothing felt the same. Maybe it’s because i didn’t really love her he thought. That’s right.
“I love you” Jongin said panting, after he broke the kiss. Kyungsoo looked at him, his eyes still sparkling as if he was about to cry. Kyungsoo then hugged him, face buried in his chest.
“I love you too. I love you so much but i hate you...”
Jongin’s eyes shot wide open, he didn’t understand that last sentence.
“...I hate it how stubborn you are and how you refuse going to a hospital. And i only sit and watch you suffer because there’s nothing else i can do.”
Jongin could barely hear the last words because Kyungsoo’s crying. He felt horrible for hurting the person he loves, that was exactly the opposite he wanted to do. At that moment he hated himself for being and idiot and hurting Kyungsoo and for being so awkward, he didn’t even know how to make him stop crying, how to make him smile again. Suddenly inviting him to sleep together was a good idea. Kyungsoo only nodded in agreement and they laid on Kai’s bed, still holding each other tightly.
“Promise me..” Kyungsoo said “..promise me you’ll get better.”
“I’m already better, because you’re with me.”
After that they feel asleep.
The sun hadn’t shown yet when Kai’s phone rang. He took his phone from the bedside table as quick as possible, he didn’t want to wake this sleeping beauty next to him.
“Drink your pain killers”
Kai then realised the pain was gone. This night after Kyungsoo had joined him in bed he slept peacefully. Kai kissed Kyungsoo’s forehead and hugged him.
“As long as i have him, i don’t need anything else.“