Today is the anniversary of 8 years that we have known. From the first day that we talked, I do remember all the thing we've been through, although how much tough or happy moment, It still stuck in my head. I have nothing to say so much, just want to have something is mine back again. I remember the day we spent together, that is so happy me. I can't go back to change the past but I can make the future. Yes, I'm not the best one but I'm bad as just this. Day by day, my life gonna be miserable, I couldn't sleep soundly for years. I can't stand losing my family, don't you know how much I love? I'm sure you can touch how hard each day I lived and lie to myself but in deeply heart I believe there is something call the base of love, though it is hopeless but I still stand and face with it every the rest day of life. I miss my family so much more than others thing in the world so please give it back to me. I'm a father but you know what is the real situation, how is my relationship with kids, should they still call me dad anymore. I take so long time to think about send it or not actually this message has done last night. So, At least I've tried. At least I have love. Can we give it one more try?