I dont have the words to tell you how hurt I am. I have no shame admitting that I have cried for the past 30 hours and it doesn't look like it will stop there. I know we had difficulties in our relationship, and at the end I pushed you away, but you will always hold a special place in my heart and my memories. I'll never forget lying on the floor of ton/ploy's house and playing "let her go" with you all. I will never forget our weekly trips to the river that soon became almost daily. and I will never forget how you pretended to get excited when I achieved something in Math. I never thought your life would get cut so short. I'd like to apologize for all the anger and tears that I caused you. We fought more than our fair share, but we had a great time when we were together. I'll never forget you Jan, I hope you find the peace in the afterlife that you deserved in this life.
your tierak