Your style of lovemaking is quite specific, with content and technique rather closely tied together.
You may at times lack spontaneity and, indeed, you are best off when you can draw that from your partner.
You probably enjoy quite specific and detailed fantasy scenarios and are most fulfilled by a lover who joins into such games with creativity and gusto. Don't worry if your fantasies are out of line with so-called normal expression. Only when your full sexuality comes totally alive will you find the fulfillment and self-understanding that you seek.